Welcome Peony...lovely name.
I stopped eight years ago, literally could not make my legs move to get out of the car in the carpark at the kingdom hall...my husband was an elder at the time and he could see I was in a crisis. I told him that night I would never go back to a kh again. We left together and have not looked back since then.
Life has its ups and downs and we have suffered heartache and loss like everyone else living on this planet.
We deal with it and try to be decent, kind people to everyone we meet.
Your honesty with your family is refreshing, hopefully in time they will wake up too.
Love to you and your family ( I am ex-pat living in Scandanavia).
Chicken little